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[04 Jun 2008|12:44am]
you have no idea how much i want to sleep with you right now
seriously
my bed has not felt this empty yet this summer

-asa
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[29 May 2008|01:34am]
things are not alright in the state of denmark
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[17 May 2008|05:31pm]

"Asa": WURD.

enhance.

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"Me": hi babe

"Asa": ENHANCE!


This is my new boyfriend.

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[21 Apr 2008|12:44am]
. i cant decide if it was a dream or not. but at some point last night  i was screaming at you, to get out of the room. but you weren't actually there.
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[23 Mar 2008|12:56am]
Drunk at the bar at last, last call – my baby’s home on her night off, So I’m involved in a serious talk with a girl I had known growing up. So we buy a six; decide to split – she has a downtown apartment. She opens the door, falls to the floor, says, “I’m bitter sick of sweet and pure, take me now I’m yours.”

Notes in his pockets, rumors in the mill, phone calls after the bars close – unlisted numbers. If she only knew, then he’d be through – but who knows which parts are true. She hates how it looks, but what can she do? The girls all talk behind her back, they say she’s being used.

At Sullivan’s drinking with Justin, he says he’s seen my ex-girlfriend. She’s back in town – and what’s worse – he knows where and when she works. So we head over to the Underwood, she’s trading shots with regulars: She gives me a hugs ‘til our hips are flush, says, “Boy, we’ve hardly kept in touch – it’s time for catching up.”

Notes in his pockets, rumors in the mill. Phone calls after the bars close – unlisted numbers. Still, he insists on his innocence; says those girls are all gossips. She’s gotta drop the axe –catch him in the act – with his shame around his ankles, chain the guilt around his neck.
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[18 Mar 2008|01:05pm]
as he twisted his arm he points to it. in gothic block lettering    " Boston, "  is written.

"why is there a comma after boston?"
"it was supposed to be a period. but they screwed up."

She looked up at his face, it had the smallest bit of shame engulfed in a huge smile.
as the two laugh it off he walks behind her wrapping  his big arms around her and
nuzzles his nose  into her hair.  he squeezes tighter leans and kisses her forehead as
he whispers "i love you" as if it was never meant for anyone else's ears.



chalk one up for crazy dreams that make you not want to wake up ever.

things have been going swell lately
i have a crush on a boy but.  its a crush.  i am prepared for the definition
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[10 Mar 2008|05:38pm]
and ill smile nice when we run into each other. cause thats the way you want it.
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[06 Mar 2008|03:35am]
but i think one of the most upsetting ideas. is finding out a body you once loved no longer beats.
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[04 Mar 2008|11:21pm]
and with that he is gone.
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[28 Feb 2008|03:09pm]
the quarter is almost over.
well fuck it.
it is over
the week has almost come to a close
hockey tomorrow. and saturday then i drive home and gray kevin and zach go to cananda
had dinner with zach the last two days. on account its the last week before break
mike miranda was all like. i like you. and i was like uhhh. and now hes like. ill talk to you after break then. maybe
improvement with things with sam. we might speak after break if he is up for it. (bullshit)
and james is moving on fucking floor, not something i want or think is a good idea
so basically i will leave for a week
come back and all relations i have with people will have changed.
lets see how this goes.
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[01 Feb 2008|03:42am]
since sunday ive lost 4 pounds. its unhealthy and i dont like the fact that i feel sick every time i go to eat food.i dont eat. its rediculous and im in no way doing it on purpose. i really hate the way things went with sam. i think a friendship between us would have been quite nice, i mean i would like to try a relationship of sorts when we get older. but that wont happen without being friends now. i think my biggest problem was being lied to. ommission lying of course but lying non the less, its a shit feeling. and i though i dont want to now second guess every single word that came out of his mouth. and i dont want to. i want to believe what he said to me. so i think i will. who knows.
i went to tilt tonight and enjoyed dancing. chelse and i danced with these two boys at first. who ended up leaving us to take care of their female friend they came with. then this guy named mark asked me to dance i stopped that when he attempted to stick his tounge down my throat. it tasted of beer. he was a jackass too. i told him it wasnt fly and i lied and told him i had a boyfriend and hes like. is he here? and i told him no. and he was like then it doesnt matter. bullshit morals men have.  so then i danced with lydia on the stage. then got up alone on one of the dancing tables which was nice. i got  a kick out of it and then we went back to the stage, from which this one guy pulled me down into the crowed to dance. he was sweet kinda cute asked if he could take me on a date. so i amused him and gave him my number only after the girls insisted.
im feeling better about my friendship with zach. ill see him tomorrow. at the party at his house.
had a crazy dream while i slept, it was extremely filled with energy that felt very positive with one woman who seemed to control it well. i feel like there was a spirit involved. ill see how things play out with the events from the dream. most distictive parts were the woman. the spirit and the metal that the energy was encased in. the woman told me that i understood what i was doing and she expected great things to become of it.
we'll see
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[31 Jan 2008|05:51pm]
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."
--Neil Gaiman




-never have i read truer words
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Oh RIT [29 Jan 2008|05:21pm]
all4pocketlint: good afternoon sir
DarkLordSprite: Hello
DarkLordSprite: how are you?
all4pocketlint: im quite fine. and yourself?
DarkLordSprite: doing good, just organizing my diffEq notes, numbering the pages and making a table of contents
all4pocketlint: sounds riviting
DarkLordSprite: i average just under 5 pages per class of DiffEq
DarkLordSprite: thats just over 2 pages an hour
DarkLordSprite: :P
DarkLordSprite: some days like today are like 9 or 10 pages
all4pocketlint: heh i take about two typed pages in this class im in now every class
all4pocketlint: so what exactlyt is DiffEq?
DarkLordSprite: Differential Equations
DarkLordSprite: it is kind of like calculus, except that it isn't
DarkLordSprite: it is pretty much teaching us even though it isn't saying it, that everything can be defined by a solvable equation
all4pocketlint: hm.
all4pocketlint: and hows that
DarkLordSprite: because you can have equations of different derivatives, with coefficients of those equations being equations, all in an equation
DarkLordSprite: and there is a theorem that says if there is a differential equation there is a solution to it
all4pocketlint: right
all4pocketlint: that makes a bit of sense. although to be honest i had to read it 3 times
DarkLordSprite: lol
DarkLordSprite: well you have an equation called  y
DarkLordSprite: and you signify what derivative of y it is by tick marks in the superscript, like first derivative is y' second is y''
DarkLordSprite: so a second order differential equation is like, ay'' + by' + cy = d, where a, b, c and d are constants
all4pocketlint: mhm
DarkLordSprite: but you can also have y'' + p( x )y' + q( x )y = g( x ) where p( x ), q( x ) and g( x ) are functions
DarkLordSprite: and you can have more than just two derivatives
DarkLordSprite: so you can pretty much make a function to describe anything
all4pocketlint: anything?
all4pocketlint: can a function be made to describe how great pie is?
DarkLordSprite: sure
DarkLordSprite: if you have the right inputs
all4pocketlint: hahaha
all4pocketlint: :-)
DarkLordSprite: i mean, it would be more variant with process variation
DarkLordSprite: but i could use statistics to come up with a model equation
DarkLordSprite: it won't be a perfect predictor on how good the pie is, but it will be close
DarkLordSprite: if taste is a factor, and we put a number to taste, then run experiments using a DOE table to test all of the different factors that go into making pie
DarkLordSprite: i can find out which factors are insignificant to the taste and which are significant and create a model equation to predict if you have this factors inputted, how good the pie will taste
all4pocketlint: really now
DarkLordSprite: yeah
DarkLordSprite: there are a lot of factors, it would be a large experiment, probably multiple experiments
all4pocketlint: how would one conduct an experiment like that?
DarkLordSprite: Well i'd have to know the inputs
DarkLordSprite: like, baking time
DarkLordSprite: amount of different ingredients
DarkLordSprite: and then i would set up a DOE table, which is an outline of your experiment, that tells you which factors to change and which to hold the same
DarkLordSprite: i would run a Fractional Factorial design becuase there are so many inputs
DarkLordSprite: then using statistical software i would get parameter estimates, and create my equation based on those
all4pocketlint: mhm
DarkLordSprite: needless to say, there would be a hell of a lot of pie to eat
all4pocketlint: : )
DarkLordSprite: it would be pricey
DarkLordSprite: but through the experiment, we could safely say that we could make the best pie ever
DarkLordSprite: because we optimize our process
all4pocketlint: indeed.
all4pocketlint: one could always sell the unneeded test pies.
DarkLordSprite: they wouldn't be unneeded
DarkLordSprite: we need to taste them
DarkLordSprite: because we need responses
all4pocketlint: but would we taste the entire pie?
DarkLordSprite: we could have some random people eat the pies
DarkLordSprite: and have them rate it
DarkLordSprite: on a continuous scale from 0-10
DarkLordSprite: or rather
DarkLordSprite: any real number lol
all4pocketlint: hahahahaaaa
DarkLordSprite: so they could say that this pie ranks pi
all4pocketlint: hehe
DarkLordSprite: there are a lot of factors
DarkLordSprite: i was just thinking how this could be done
DarkLordSprite: and i decided that it couldn't be done on my budget
all4pocketlint: of course nto
all4pocketlint: not*
all4pocketlint: it would be an expensive thing to do
DarkLordSprite: it would be posible to do the experiment if we hold everything else constant and only change 2 or 3 factors
DarkLordSprite: 2 factors we'd make 4 pies, 3 factors we'd make 8 pies
DarkLordSprite: 4 = 16,
DarkLordSprite: 5 = 32
DarkLordSprite: see how fast it goes up?
DarkLordSprite: lol
DarkLordSprite: how many ingrediants go into pies?
DarkLordSprite: we could also narrow it down to just the filling
DarkLordSprite: and then just the crust
DarkLordSprite: and if we have more than 3 factors we cna do a fractional factorial design
DarkLordSprite: so 4 factors could be done with only 16 pies
DarkLordSprite: but we'll need 3 center point pies
DarkLordSprite: so we'll actually need 3 more pies for each of those numbers
all4pocketlint: right
DarkLordSprite: so 2 = 7 pies, 3 = 11 pies, 4 = 11 pies, 5 = 19 pies
DarkLordSprite: if we run fractional factorials for over 4 factors
DarkLordSprite: and we won't want to do experiments with more than 4 or 5 factors at a time
DarkLordSprite: as you can see the numbers quickly get out of hand
DarkLordSprite: 7 pies is a bit much
all4pocketlint: right. so how many pies are a minumum?
DarkLordSprite: 7
DarkLordSprite: well, it could be done with 4 pies, buuut we won't get good information
DarkLordSprite: and we'll only learn about two factors
all4pocketlint: right and that wont suffice for the best pie ever
DarkLordSprite: we would have to do multiple experiments with overlap so we can see the interaction between factors
DarkLordSprite: because with the 7 pies we'd learn about the factors and their interactions with each other
DarkLordSprite: we need interactions, because they are normally significant
DarkLordSprite: 3 effect interactions normally aren't significant
DarkLordSprite: but 2 effect interactions are
all4pocketlint: i didnt know that
all4pocketlint: why?
DarkLordSprite: because they can effect each other
DarkLordSprite: but 3 effect interactions normally aren't significant
all4pocketlint: hm
DarkLordSprite: it just statistically isn't significant normally
DarkLordSprite: sometimes they are
DarkLordSprite: but not often
DarkLordSprite: and higher number effect interactions are even less likely
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[23 Jan 2008|08:03am]
mr burke also doesnt know what hes doing.
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[20 Jan 2008|05:11pm]
samuel burke kisses my forehead when he wants to do dirty things to me in public.
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[09 Jan 2008|09:16pm]
its taken me a year and a half but i know why i love this song. she is me

Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened
And you never will if
You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall
Where you've had me for hours
Till I'm sure what I want
But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no way

Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime
So just say yes or no
Why can't you shoulder the blame
Coz both my shoulders are heavy
From the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said...
Oh, my God

Please take it easy it can't all be my fault
I haven't made half the mistakes
That you've listed so far
Oh baby let me explain something
It's all down to drugs
At least I remember taking the and not a lot else
It seems I've stepped over lines
You've drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out
Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride
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[08 Jan 2008|01:35am]
alex relapsed for the third time. shortly after asking me to kinda get back with him
almost simultaneously zach tells me he  is planning to transfer out of rit back to michigan.
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[06 Jan 2008|09:39am]
AhhSuperToilet: wut up hottie
all4pocketlint: not toomuch. just got home from an exciting final day home
AhhSuperToilet: cool
AhhSuperToilet: ima go drink beers iwth andy reezs and recal the good ol days
all4pocketlint: right now?
AhhSuperToilet: yes
all4pocketlint: alright.  were you just checking in?
AhhSuperToilet: feel free to leave me and exciting story or interesting fact
AhhSuperToilet: yeah
AhhSuperToilet: felt like calling ya hot
AhhSuperToilet: and now im gone
AhhSuperToilet: lata

all4pocketlint: byee
all4pocketlint: so i was kidnapped by these three pirates today who go by the names of mike chris and tucker. and they drove me out to east bumfuck connecticut. and decided that we were going to go on some small seafaring adventures then go out for wings that were supposedly the best ever. rated the best in the state. they lied, although they were the tastiest id had in CT the ones you took me to have were far better purely because they were bigger and size matters. so iguess as inaguration into this tavern basically. if its your first time you have to have the complicated wings. which are tear enducing hot. so after i had my share of the tasty wings. including honey BBQ dijon which were my favorites. their honey BBQ plain didnt cut it. they pirates forced me to have one of these complicated wings. and my god, it singed every little lit of life off my tounge.well 15 minutes a shirly temple. 2 glasses of water, and a few spoonfuls of bleu cheese dressing later i was ready to go on with my life. it was really quite intense. shortly after our meal. we sailed to this chicks house. who goes by the name devin. and at her house was their comrade ian, and we started a band with all her kitchen pots and pans. and then built a spaceship and jetpacks with her cardboard that was gonna be tossed. then sumo wrestled with pillows. then had an endurance match in the ice. i won (winner was bought a soda by the loser)  then it was left to chris to bring me back to that form which i came. but upon our arrival we encountered a pack of coyotes which kept us a while and we passed the time in conversation once the coyotes passed i was released back to my homested to report yet another story to you.
all4pocketlint: enjoy babe <3

AhhSuperToilet: not gunna lie
AhhSuperToilet: you are crazy in the weirdest hottest way possible
AhhSuperToilet: and i like it








hahaha. so anyways. thats the best
explanation of my last night home.
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[06 Dec 2007|08:21pm]
girl is dating boyfriend back home
girl meets a new boy and he starts to like her
girl gets pissed off at her boyfriend drug use and leaves him for new boy
new boy has such an impact on girl that she leaves her old flirty ways and flirts with noone
girls friends notice this.
girl starts to fall for boy
girl sleeps with boy, and half lives at boys house.
boy takes girl to see her favorite band
girl gets used to things.
boy seems to be really into girl
boy goes on vacation
boy doesnt talk to girl for 2 weeksboy comes  and girl for bestfriend...
girl cries.
girl realizes all that boys friends think hes a prick, and with good reason
girl wishes he was real with them.
boy hides true self from alotta people who could be close to him
boy wants to be friends with girl
girl doesnt really want to be friends with boy
girl feels like shit, and misses the boys friends and house mates, because they make her smile.
girls gonna move on and go back to her flirty self.
sweet!

 (appologies for that aweful way of writing)

in other news jimmy eat worlds new album is amazing.
and im starting to miss people i have contact with everyday.
because im not really there.

soon though, i bounce back

also, i love painting with gouache on tracing paper. its pretty
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[18 Nov 2007|04:36pm]
im getting curiouser and curiouser about zach as things go on.


its just an overreactive mind im sure
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